home of the brave?

So, I'm back in America and actually have been for almost three weeks now. I haven't had too much trouble adjusting back to the states (albeit a few cultural moments), but that may be just because I've had a task list long enough to keep me super busy and distracted. Number one on the list is, of course, support raising. For some reason, I think I had this false idea that if I did everything right and worked really hard as soon as I got home, the money would come in easily and quickly and I wouldn't have to worry about it come August. Well, support (like evangelism) doesn't work that way and I still have quite a bit of monthly support to raise. I can do everything "right" and still not control how much support I get. It's not up to me and what I do, but has everything to do with God and His provision. I realize I still need to be diligent, be bold and do what He's called me to do (no matter how uncomfortable), but I need to completely trust that He will work and He will provide what I need and not rely on myself. It's hard. It's humbling. It's good.